a tearful day indeed

you know, i think, today is the day which i felt hurt the most. well, i wont spoil the details here.. sometimes, i just hope, that the one you love and youre gonna spend your whole life with, accepts you for who you are, and that shes marrying you because you are unique and differently from the rest. if you are the frequent subject of comparisons, where is the love in this?

sometimes, i am confused. this is the reason why i had so much reservations in my feelings, because ive been hurt before, and truthfully, im very afraid to undergo it again... i couldnt give my full affection if someone keeps ridiculing you with ghosts of the past.. i am really afraid.. afraid of me getting hurt and breaking down yet again...