tears n rain

cold and frosty sunday. woke up in the morning and i thought i might wanna go out and catch some waves to town. but when the clock struck 12, 5 mins after i woke up with such big plans, it started to rain. gurrr-reat, i thought to myself. better luck next time then, i thought to myself again....today is exactly 2 years ever since rachel (not her real name to protect her indentity) passed away...in case u were wondering, rachel was my childhood friend, and the best friend ever was, and the best ever is...we went thru so much together ever since we were kids...until 3 years ago, she passed away of leukemia...painful memory.....and without realizing, i shed a tear thinking of her today...tears, actually...not just a tear....

and lucky that i didnt manage to strut today, as i was spending my solitude in the toilet most of the time today...not crying, but sitting on the cubicle and carrying out the "output"...must be food poisoning....wat crap...stuck at home, dwell in memories, and "stuck" in the toilet most of the time...well, i guess it really improves my relationship with the toilet now....haha....

aaaand speaking of relationship, my hamster has found a new companion today..haha..there goes our "brokeback mountain" relationship....oh poor me...hahah.....suuwwwiiitt

Reckoning

arrival. mortal. reckoning. crusade. destiny.

five words. u add them up together, and my path will be laid before me...im between the boy and the man im destined to become...been thinking about a lot of things lately...about the future, and what im gonna do to play my part in it...hahaha..i know its been a abit early to plan everything, but if u dont start young, ure not gonna be successful when ure old...aaanyway, its been wierd nowadays...my colleagues have started calling me 'superman' and 'clark kent'...but they call me 'clark kent' all the time...hahaha...and have been in people's attention alot nowadays...and then theres salsa...haha....crusade and destiny...ive yet to reach that level...for now its just reckoning..and hopefully, when the time for crusade comes, i hope i'll be in good shape to pursue my destiny...just like the sign i received which says "hope", until now i cant figure what it really means....could it mean i'm the one who will give hope to my friends, family, and the people around me? that could be possible.....

Lana

Dear lana,

Theres no one like you

Dear lana,

May you always be filled with happiness,

Wherever you are

You have found your love,

I've lost mine

So many things to be said,

Time doesnt permits

Your first smile, Our first meeting,

Brings a tear to my eyes without you

Dear lana,

Theres no one like you.....

a manic monday

what a tiring manic monday. as usual, im still feeling tired and sleepy. thanks to the GE deployment on sat, from 3am all the way to 6pm..16 hours work, no rest...and im lacking of a well deserved rest...thought of taking leave on thursday..and since my replacement has already come in, he can always stand in for me while i take some rest and a time off to disturb my colleagues from the other departments..haha..it was quite fun irritating them when i said "u know what? ORD-oh!!!" hahahaa! and its been sumtime since i went for a sprinting practice and a good relaxing jog...thought of going back to NP to do my ritual jogging this wednesday,and some conditioning too...aaaanyway, i just washed my 3 stripes and it looks as thought it has been polished like a relfecting metal...better than the old goldish and rusty stripes a few days ago...didnt wash it for ages..hahaha...people tot im the old sch sergeant..hahaha

destiny

work. rock climbing. running tracks. art. salsa.

those are classes which fills my week each week. sounds tough? not at all. its the only way to keep myself occupied. and relaxed. the passing hour has passed. the age has come. the time for crusade. destiny is calling. time to fulfill it. well, kinda miss oliver. wonder where has he gone. i hope he is getting stronger now. which reminds me. i miss lana too...and lois...can say, they have always been great friends to me...and ive always been waiting for lana...to watch the stars together. the meteor showers together. and a lifetime of sweetness together. and to go to Nice together. and i wonder when will that day ever come...maybe in another lifetime...and lois have to always finish my thoughts before i do, which i find it very irritating and rude. and stuck up...but lana, well, i shud ask, do u believe in destiny?

lana: I feel like you've created this perfect picture of who i am

clark: That's what i see

lana: I have this fear that i'm going to disappoint you and i'm afraid that it'll change the way you feel about me

clark: Nothing could even or could ever do that.....