Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They wont stop 'til they've reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshoped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's world war III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
Money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUV's
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

is everybody going crazy?

*this is dedicated to all the teens and youths in the world today.
tapered jeans.sex before marriage.making out in public.flirtatious like theres no shame.
is everybody going crazy? tell me....*

battered and bruised trying to save you

hmm...feeling bored..nothing to do....just finished wathing 'kung fu hustle' on dvd..haha...crappy story....but nice...esp the touching part where the guy and girl facing each other...happy ending i guess..hehe..hmm been preparing for exams for my course exams that is coming soon..anw, my shin and shoulder hurts...i think theres bruises...but nvm, i massaged them and should be ok by tomorrow...my back hurts too...gotta eat medicine after this...dont worry, i'll be okay...i promise...im sure my illness can be cured, insya allah...hmm..wonder what 's' is doing now...senyap jer....hmm...maybe shes busy with her projects..yea could be...

a walk to nowhere...a hope for re-kindled love

Heys…I wonder who is or will read this….probably no one….becuz simply ive left them…I cant take it anymore…they’ve done enuff damage to my life…this is too much…esp when they say those things abt salihah…this I cannot accept n never will…I feel so guilty to haf such stupid and fucking friends…im very hurt right now….

Salihah…shes hurt too…becuz of their fuckin shitty comments, salihah’s really down and hurt…I feel terrible….i can never forgive myself….i wonder y I haf such idiotic friends around….or should I say, former friends…im a stranger now…and I guess I’ll forever be alone….but im worried abt salihah n her well-being….

She wants to leave…becuz of their comments…I damn them now…why in the blazers they have to say such things abt us? Why the hell do they to do damage to the happy life me and salihah had? Arggh…but she still stands with her decision…all I can, is to cling on hope…even if its so thin, im willing to risk for it….becuz, I hope that she and I will be together again…and I will promise, that nth will get our way this time…I will never let anyone or anything to hurt her ever again…

I miss her terribly…and will always miss her…love…love her for what she is…even though shes sensitive, shes adorable and lovely lady…her smile, the way she walk, the way she talk, the way she laughs…makes my heart beat faster and melt…it’s true..its just that I didn’t tell her abt it…cuz I cant put into words the love I feel for her…its unexplainable…its so pure than even I am willing to die for her…..and shes really the one I really love with all my heart…and always will be…theres no other lady that could ever replace her in me…the memories…yes..the memories of us I will forever treasure till the day of my last breath…to me, shes the one and only love that I duely care, faithful and loyal to….and shes so special…

And theres Raqin too…salihah’s cute little nephew….i really missed him too…his big cute eyes, and little expression…I loved cuddling him…and miss cuddling him…he will be agreat boy…even greater than me…I could see a potential in him…he could be a genius…and I will always be happy to guide him to be a great man in the future….well, his b’day is comin soon….and he will be a year older… I wonder if he has started to learn how to walk…heheh…it sure will be very cute to see his cute little footprints…
I will always miss him….

Well, I guess im drifting alone now….into emptiness….hizami didn’t reply my message….i guess he too has his own life…and I wouldn’t wanna disturb him…
I’ve always prayed for salihah’s safety and happiness everyday and night…and may God Allah be my witness, I pray that Salihah, her family, and Raqin will always be safe and under Allah’s protection, and grant them happiness that even light could not outshine their happiness…and if possible, take my happiness, and give it to them….they deserved it more than I do…esp salihah….shes the innocent party, and she don’t deserve to be treated by my former friends like that…Im the one who deserved to suffer…n not she…..

Dear god, take me as I am, take my life…I would give it all I would sacrifice…give me the strength and will to walk in this darkness and sadness…and I pray, that nobody suffers the same fate as mine….esp salihah….dear god, protect her always…and may she be always happy…how I wish I could tell her how I really feel for her…..day n night shes in my mind….and always will be……